He repairs, He repairs

This is the email I just sent out to family and friends regarding something that has been going on in my life. But thanks to Frank Weller at SLCC for giving us the whole meal for those of us who braved the snow and showed up to hear him preach.

Hi everyone,

As many of you may or may not know I have been dealing with a medical problem for a year and a half now. I was diagnosed with cervical dysplasia and have had two surgeries in the past year to remove the abnormal cells. My last surgery was in August and my first of three rechecks was on November 12th. I have to have 3 clear rechecks before being able to go back to seeing my Dr. only once or twice a year. As luck would have it – this recheck too came back with abnormalities. However my Dr. said I tested negative for HPV. What this means, well we aren’t really sure yet. He is having the pathologist look at the results from my last surgery (a LEEP surgery) to compare with the new results. Once he has heard back from the pathologist then he will let me know. And from there we will know what my options are and if another surgery is in my future or what.

This has not only been a mental and physical strain but a financial one as well. We meet my deductible with the first surgery in February and then meet my out of pocket expenses with the second surgery. So if I am to have another surgery in this upcoming year it will most likely be a repeat of the same. Which of course adds to my mental strain and frustration about this whole situation.

As I sat in church this morning and prayed at communion, yes we braved the snowy roads in Lansing to attend church where we were, I prayed for peace of mind. I can’t do anything about what my body will do but I can stop worrying about it. I have asked that God take my worries and mental frustration about this away many times over the past year. I’ve asked for His will to be done many times and this month has been a trial on my patience and peace. It seems that some small thing will cause me to get mad, be upset or get worried all over again. This month it was that it took the lab a month the get the results back, after being told 7 – 10 days was typical. To find out on Wednesday from my Dr. that the results were faxed over Saturday. But they were found on the fax at 3:12 p.m. Monday when I called to inquire if the results were back yet. To then have to wait until Wednesday for the results because my Dr. was working in the hospital on Tuesday. And of course evidently no one else in the office could read them or interpret what they said to tell me what the results were.

But this morning I had one of those “Aha!” moments. After communion was over we sang “The glory of it all” by David Crowder. There was one spot in particular that really hit me – “And after all falls apart, He repairs, He repairs”. Of course after having prayed for my medical situation as well as my Dr. and the pathologist and for peace of mind. It was one of those “let go and let God” moments to use a phrase from Pastor Bob. I will be fine no matter what happens because it is God’s will for my life. But a little prayer never hurt any situation.

Love to all,
In HIS service,
Jennifer

Here is the video of The Glory of it all in this link if the embed is not working again.